“I never wanted to have a baby. I always wanted to be a mother” Sushmita Sen
Three years ago this little boy was born and made me a mother.
As I am reflecting how time has gone, I’ve also been thinking about what motherhood truly means to me. Becoming a mother is so much more than being responsible, nurturing, loving etc etc.
More than my child I think I have learned a lot more about myself during the process called motherhood. The dark parts of myself – the ugly parts that say you still need to work on yourself to be a mom.
After my traumatic labor experience and then postpartum depression. I felt as if I was just not prepared for motherhood well no one actually is but I somehow felt very overbearing. I used to lock myself up in a room and cry for hours on nothing. If I saw my little one cry for something and I couldn’t understand why that made me brood and sulk over it for days.
I have matured being a MOM than what I was three years ago. I have evolved as a human being too. I now have a lot more patience, understanding, and acceptance for people and situations. As my fellow blogger, Shwetha mentioned in her post too!!!
Messy floors, dirty laundry, late office and a very tired life do not trouble me anymore. I have started embracing these and would not exchange them for anything in this world.
But I still sometimes lose my temper at my little one and go a bit overboard in disciplining him. I guess i will soon get over that too!!!
Being a mom does not mean you are always a perfect human being who is flawless.Some portion of anxiety, stress, and tension is normal and necessary but often we see nothing but these odd-adjectives in our life and tend to wash away pleasures of this new life. I don’t want to spend my entire time thinking when will my little one will grow up and then I will have some time for myself or I can handle him a little better.
Motherhood, many ways completely lost the me I was before it; but I have found a new me …a very apt statement made by this gorgeous mama Sushi Targett who shares her motherhood journey here.
The sleepless nights, the tantrums, the feeling pulled in many different directions with no end in sight – it has all been worth it. The hard days are not ending anytime soon but I wouldn’t change it for a second. The feeling of their soft cheeks rubbing against mine and the way they tackle me with their hugs are more than enough to counteract any of the challenges I may face.
I know when he grows up The feeling of his soft cheeks rubbing against mine and the way he tackles me with his hugs are the moments I will miss the most.
I’ve learned to work hard at keeping my thoughts positive and make the best of every tough situation.
P.S: This post is a part of a Mums and Babies blog train organized by Pooja Kawatra where 41 mothers from all over the world have come together to write together. Do read her blog post on ‘How Motherhood Has Changed Me’.
Now I would like to invite Karuna (Mom blogger) to write about her motherhood journey.
Karuna is the half blogger behind www.
Still very new to the blogging world, Karuna loves sharing her motherhood journey, homeschooling experience and reviews of some fabulous product that she and her family use.